r e a s o n s ♥

The point of being in love where you have fallen to hard,and it is harm for your self to let it go. you're in love . I am in love . With someone right or wrong ? But I have fallen too hard that I cant let him go again. And it is complicated , so complicated .

I have so much questions why I fall in love with him?

mybe , That is a big question on his mind too.

" w h y ? "





I said, why did I fall in love with him ?

Well . . .

for many reasons, I fell in ♥ with him because he has shown me in so many things.

He thought me to be strong, to be happy, to be what ever I want as long as I'm with him.


And I've never been like that. I never feel that way before.





I never been so mad about things. I never been so cruel to someone. I never been such a pain in the ass before. I never been crying that hard for someone before.


It was the first time .



And I feel complete. I completely overwhelmed by his thoughts.


I feel something weird ...... The way he fooled me time by time.

The way he see me , with a lot of  ♥

The way he said, "I love you",

The way he touched me .

The way he struggled to be with me .

The way he made me feel bad everytime we fight.

The way every tiny things he did to me, with lots of love, he did it.




And my days are going by. Still.

My every morning, I just checking out my cellphone. Thinking he might sent me a message. Well He used to. But I guess not anymore : )



Maybe I've been with him for too long that God think I should set him free. Maybe he deserves someone else better than me.

Someone who is willing to give anything he want, willing to be there whenever he want, willing to do anything, and I mean anything to just get that sweet smile on his cold hard face back again.



Willing to say, " i Love you " for thousands of time every day .

After 3 years I've known him. I felt like he is already a part of me .

part of my Life .

A part where remembers me about everything, many memories.

I might say that my brain is full of him.

yess , Only him !

Seems like everytime I do something, it reminds me of him.


Everytime I wake up, everytime I listen to songs, everytime I read books.
Always feel the same..
















I think losing you is the hardest thing of all.
But let me tell you something .


For the one that I love the most, I'd do anything.
But I won't do things that considered to be good only for you. It's not fair.
Being in love, and I mean really in love.
Is kind of a fun, yet suprisingly stressing when I pass it with you.



Everything I wrote, it was always about you.


I love you in so many other way around ♥